A Max monologue that takes place around "The Balance." Found only on my site.
Max'll fix it. Max always fixes it. No matter what we do, Max'll come through for us and make everything right again.
Sometimes I feel like that's exactly what Michael and Isabel, Michael especially, fell about me. Good ol' Max. Reliable Max. It doesn't matter what they do, how stupid they act, how close they come to revealing us, they expect me to fix everything. They think I can magically make everything better.
I'm sick of it. I'm sick of being thought of as Mr. Responsibility. I hate being the dependable one. Why does it always have to be me?
It isn't fair. I know life's not supposed to be fair, but that doesn't stop me from being annoyed. Michael and Isabel expect me to do things they would never consider. Or in some cases, like my dating Liz, I'm not allowed to do things they both do.
We went on one date. One date! It was only Chinese food. Yet they way they were acting, you'd think I was getting married and moving to another country, or something.
It's not like they haven ever dated. Isabel, for god's sake, is out on a date every week. Usually with a different guy each time, too.
And it wasn't too long ago that Michael was spending ever spare moment making out with Maria.
Yet when I go out with Liz, the one girl I've had a crush on for as long as I remember, the girl I've loved since I first lay eyes on her, they give me a hard time about. It's hardly fair that they're allowed to date and I'm not. It's not right that they can have lives and I can't.
Sometimes I feel like I'm a possession of theirs. A doll that they're constantly fighting over. Each of them are on different sides and are constantly trying to win me over to their side. We're in a never-ending game of tug-of-war with me as the rope. And whenever one of them wins, the other one sulks and I'm always at the receiving end of their anger. I'm always the one at fault.
I never win. I never get my way. I'm always trying to appease one of them. I'm always forced to find the compromise that leaves no one happy with the way things turn out. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it all.
Why do they have to be so possessive of me? Just because I have friends doesn't mean I'll start ignoring them and cutting them out of my life. Just because I love Liz doesn't mean I love either of them any less. I wish they understood that. Why can't they understand that? Why must I always be the one to suffer?
It just isn't fair.